Decisions

As I got back from LCCT after sending a friend off to Australia, my mind started to think again, it could be me soon. Everyone's leaving overseas soon, be it Australia, UK, US.

There is a lot of aspects or so to be consider, or should I say reconsider to think twice. I do not want to burden my parents, as my brother is currently doing his pre-u. What if he wants go overseas like me? That will accumulate more pressure and burden to my parents. Should I be selfish? Is it worth it?

RMIT? Chee Mun, Kenneth, and/or maybe Han Shen would be there. Chee and Kenneth would be starting in Feb this year, while Han Shen is still doubtful. I would have to fly this July if I were to study in RMIT.

Swinburne University of Technology? I'll be all alone, facing the whites, and claimed by Kenneth there will be less Asian there, more pressure/things/issues to cope? Would the whites discriminate me? Would I ever get to fit in? Would I have to rebel or do stuff that I dislike just to fit in? I fear loneliness, I definitely need some companion in Australia to guide me through my studies. I have to go through my year 1 in Inti Nilai, hostel life for me, first time ever, would I be able to settle down and really study and stop procrastinating?!

Deakin University? Just like Swinburne, I'm all alone. And I would have to fly in July too, though this university is the nearest to where I'm gonna live in Australia, my aunt's house.

Unsettled, uncertain, which path? Would I able to go through all the obstacles?